Last year I know we were so inspired when we chose the family theme to "seek the good." Cancer brought me down low and it was the best reminder to remember that there is always good. Sometimes we have to search a little bit to find it, but it is there. God is in the details. and God is good. I hope our children will always remember our 2018 theme and seek the good throughout their lives. What we seek for, we will find.
For 2019, we had a theme in mind and we almost settled on it, but then I thought back to 2018 and its craziness (yes there was good, but there was also stress!) and I knew we needed something a little bit more lighthearted than what we originally thought of. After prayer, discussion, and thought we concluded that our 2019 family theme should be......
Friday, March 8, 2019
2019 family theme: Say Cheese!
Thursday, March 7, 2019
another cancer update (a happier one)
It took me a good week to process all of my feelings and emotions after I wrote my last cancer update. However, I am happy to say that today I am in a much better mental space about everything. Cancer has sent me on a rollercoaster of ups and downs that I'm not quite off yet, but today I am enjoying the ride.
To report: My eyelashes are back! My eyebrows are pretty much back to how they were before. And my hair is making some progress. I actually had to go get my hair trimmed up because the bottom was getting much, much longer than the top. The top of my head is taking its sweet time to regrow. So I had to get rid of that mullet.
I don't put anything on my head when I go to church and I have gone a few other places without a hat. But, generally, because it is still chilly enough to, I wear a beanie most days. I am trying to pretend to be brave and comfortable with my new look, but I have never been a fan of short hair so it is a big adjustment.
My last lab work showed my WBC rising back up so that is a good sign. That helped me feel better for sure.
I went in to my oncologist's office for a "chemo teach" to hear about the two new drugs they want to put me on--Zoladex and Anastrozole. I am hesitant about these new drugs, but of course I want to give myself the best chances possible, and then pray the good outweighs the bad, so I decided to give the drugs a try. My anxiety was through the roof that day, but I was glad these two came with me for my first injection.
Look at that needle. Yikes! It didn't feel very good. But I dramatically laid down and covered my eyes and let them do it. Done until next month.
My side effects have been minimal so far and so I will start my daily pill tomorrow and see how I do on that.
This is one of my favorite quotes lately and I loved getting it in my inbox from my daily quotes from Gretchen Rubin.
Tuesday, February 26, 2019
peacemaker
Last week, when we studied from "come follow me," we read the Beattitudes. We spent some time discussing what it means and looks like to be a peacemaker. As we were talking, we all thought of little Brinna. She brings so much peace into our home with her smile and her sweetness.
Not too long after our discussion, I was folding laundry and Layla was feeling upset about something I told her to do or she couldn't do (I don't remember which one). She buried her face into her blanket and her knees and started crying. Within seconds, Brinna stopped playing with her toys and toddled over to Layla. She announced "sad" and gave Layla a series of hugs, kisses, and rubs on the head until her big sister calmed down.
“Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.”
Thursday, February 21, 2019
the beach
We hit the beach in the morning before heading back home to Arizona.
Just enjoying a little bit of baby yoga on the beach. She’s always got a downward dog in her.
These next pictures are the grand finale of our time at the beach.
Tuesday, February 19, 2019
Legoland
Since the older boys got a trip to Universal Studios in January, we took the little ones to Legoland!
We kicked off the Lego weekend by all seeing the Lego Movie 2 on saturday. We are all, led in huge part by Perry, huge fans of the Lego Movie. And this second movie was SO good! Perry had been anxiously and obsessively waiting for the movie to come out. He even asked to bring some friends with him. We brought two friends from the ward (the sweetest boys!) and Perry was so thrilled to be sitting next to his friends, eating popcorn, drinking "spicy juice", and watching a movie he was so excited about it.
We left with the three younger kids right after church on Sunday and drove to california. We stayed in a cheap hotel within walking distance of Legoland. Perry revealed to us his new love for playing Uno. We didn't even know that he has been playing at school with his friends and now loves it. So while we were in the hotel room he wanted to play over and over again. We happily agreed! I am excited that he can join us in playing games now.
On Monday, we walked over to the Legoland and enjoyed 7 hours at the park. I had never been before so I was pleasantly surprised at how much there was to do and how nicely it was set up. Our kids were the perfect ages for it. Well, Brinna wasn't tall enough for most rides (she is still shy of 30 in.), but we rotated who stayed with her and it was a really enjoyable day.
This was Layla's first big rollercoaster. While on the ride, they took the best picture of her going down the big drop--she had a look of pure terror! Her eyes were as wide as can be. Part of me wishes we had just spent the $15 and bought the print, but we didn't so I guess I'll just have to keep that moment in my own memory. She rode the ride two more times that day and her pictures on those two rides showed much more enjoyment than fear.
Layla loved all of the Lego statues everywhere. And wanted a picture with just about every single one.
She got her hands up on this rollercoaster! Perry goes along with any and every ride. Never too scared. Just happy as can be.
Can you see Perry's legs dangling there? Proof that Perry rode this fun ride with me. He yelled, "I'm going to fall into the water!" the whole time.
I got Layla on it, too. She yelled, "I want to get off!" the whole time.
We loved the Star Wars Lego characters and displays.
Perry lit up when he saw the Storm trooper and again when he saw the big ships and scenes from the movies. (His mustache is red gatorade.)
The ninjago ride was one of the few rides that Brinna could go on with us. It was in the dark and so she hated it! Poor baby.
This was Brinna's favorite ride--the submarine.
Our last ride of the day was the carousel. We had it all to ourselves. But really the park was not crowded all day. We did get a disability pass and used Perry's wheelchair because that just works better for him, but the waits were short regardless.
We couldn't get her on the horse! So she sat in the car on this one.
It was such a fun, quick trip. It was weird being there without Kyler and Kacin, but Legoland is much more suited to younger kids so it was all good.
About Me
I was 19 the day that Eric and I got married and I had my whole perfect life PLANNED out—a time table, a list of goals, EXPECTATIONS, and dreams. But LIFE gave me something EVEN BETTER than my limited vision and plans: a chance to learn and grow and BECOME by experiencing infertility, foster care, adoption, special needs (autism) parenting, breast cancer, and more. Our lives are often challenging, PAINFUL, and complicated, yet it is no doubt that they are GLORIOUS, wonderful, and exciting, too. Our EXPERIENCES, the ones we DELIBERATELY seek out and the ones we would never have picked but we have to MUDDLE through anyways, SHAPE us. We CHOOSE what that shape will look like in the end by our ATTITUDE and our willingness to EMBRACE the moments of life. For it is the MOMENTS that DEFINE us. I choose to WALK FORWARD in the BRIGHTNESS of hope by noticing those moments, LEARNING as much as I can, SEEKING the good, and TRUSTING in a loving God.
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